So, I have been job hunting on a site that will remain nameless (one that wants to 'build' my 'career') for weeks.
I have finally come to the realization, when I hit send my resume does not go to the employer for the amazing job that I am so desperately hoping for... Instead, my resume finds its way to some glutinous void that cares little for my thoughts and feelings. This sinister void doesn't understand that EVERY day is a challenge now at work. It doesn't care that I never get to tuck my daughter in at night or see her pretty face when she wakes.
Then again, why should it care. After all, my employer doesn't...
I know it does not matter. My job is not my life, and for as few of hours as they give me, it's less that it has ever been. Truly I understand God's perfect timing and how He uses rough times. I just can't help but feel that I am completely missing something. Surely God knows my patience is thin, my body fatigued, my anger... well, hot.
We came to Arizona hoping for a big change. We got it alright! But I am beginning to second guess the choice.
